Sunday, July 15, 2012

A Letter to my son on his second birthday!

Dear Arnav...

Happy birthday!


You will be turning 2 years old within couple of weeks, and it’s been the most joyful, exhausting, funniest and fullest years of my life..you made your entrance into this world and my life hasn’t been the same since.. I’m so thankful for you. I’m so glad God chose to give us you, that he picked you just as you are and blessed us with your little life. You are perfect for your dad and me.

I know you may not understand today what Iam writing to you but yes one day you will surely enjoy reading it! And that will be most happiest moment in our life!

I love the way you look, my beautiful little cutie pie,a perfect image of your dad.It’s so cute to see you turn into your daddy.You and your daddy have the same face, the same walk, the same mannerisms, the same emotional make-up. It’s really awesome to see this and experience the same.And Iam proud of it!

Iam extremely fond of your beautiful black eyes, your precious little ears and crazy hair making you perfectly imperfect.When I see you, I see your dad, but more than that, you just look like family to me. You look like you came from me, pulled from my past, this perfect culmination of everything that’s ever happened to bring you to this point....

You are by far my biggest source of joy and my biggest energy drain. You keep me going, you keep my laughing and man, oh, man do I love seeing you smile.

You are a crazy little boy, though, do you know that? You run in circles around the living room, giggling to yourself and falling out as soon as you make yourself dizzy.

I love your laid-back, easy-going, silly personality.Initially You were enjoying large crowds, being around people you know and people you don’t...but now you have started recognizing people who are familiar to you..but The way you wave your hands while saying hi and bye to anyone and everyone is just amazing!Everybody is bound to fell in love with you.You are really bundle of joy for me....

I love the way you smile,laughing silently or giggling audibly.The way you love to be swung around,The way you reach out to touch everything. The way you love to offer us your food, your toys or the little scraps of paper you find on the ground...The way you enjoy playing with kitchen utensils especially spoons,dishwasher and cupboard..way you love feeding me with your sweet hands...I really enjoy it!

You are such a little gentleman and I’m telling you, it’s just IN you. I haven’t had to teach you how to be kind and loving – you knew how to embody those qualities from birth.

I enjoy and love reading shlokas to you every afternoon while you are sleeping...You’re trusting and sweet, and I treasure these moments.

I remember you play so very nicely and point out perfectly animals, make their sounds, enjoy nursery rhymes being played on laptop everytime while eating..with the sing-song rhythms and lot more!You are indeed an easy baby giving less trouble to your mommy!

I know how you love listening to songs while riding in our mitsubishi-galant.When any nursery rhymes ends you say aaaaaannnnnn...along with it...perfect gap between start of new song and end of old one....so also I enjoy feeding muskmelon to u....I clearly remember the moment it is finished from home I send your dad to walmart to pick one for you....Iam really going to miss these moments a lot dear...

I love the way you wake up in the mornings,crying either for me or dad to pick you up. I love the crooked little mouth and long face you make when you cry, how your cry affects me....I remember how I shout on your dad when he does mischeif with you and makes you cry....a different kind of play!

I clearly remember the day you spoke first word tree...I almost dropped the dishes I was holding when I heard you say that! My heart swelled three sizes that day. You
are my baby for real!!!

I love to listen your sweet words like bye,learning new words and sounds almost daily..You dont know how much thrilled and happy I was when I heard from your mouth for the first time the word Jai..Really you are god's sweet little gift to us! and tremendously blessed by god...I just cant describe my joy in words..I admire you everytime now onwards when you say Jai after praying god everyday.I wholeheartedly thank god for this miracle...Iam eagerly waiting to listen to you talk..,You
recently learned to say Bye !I clearly remember we were returning back from swati kaku.s house and there for the first time you said bye!You cant imagine dear how very happy me and your kaku were!...Really swati kaku only taught you how to say bye... .Today at the grocery store also,You were saying bye to each and everyone around you! All were admiring you and were very glad to greet you.So also happy to know that you can easily say now ball...My ears stuck high when I heard for the first time you said star...I was amazed when you said mau....and finally for the first time uttered maa after memorizing you for hundred times by your favourite kaku...

But that doesn’t mean we haven’t had our challenges. When you were a newborn, you were termed as premature baby for about 15 days and was placed under light...you were so tiny that I used to get frightened to hold you in my hands...but your grandma,doctor and almighty god along with your dad gave me strenghth and belief that everything would just go perfect!I used to be worried a lot and hence would always pray for you to god..but within very few days you became healthy baby...loved and liked by all!

I remember nursing or feeding was a play for you...entire night you would be awake and hardly you would sleep...Me and grandma used to wait eagerly counting hours and seeing clock,every minute so that night time is over...Your dad and me have clicked your night hourly videos..how very excited and joyfully playing you would be during night!.

I had never known what tired was like until then. I remember once when you were ill and were suffering from cold cough and fever you would hardly sleeep..Those few-and-far-between moments when you slept, your dad and I would lay half-awake, too nervous to sleep deeply, carefully checking to make sure you were asleep. Every little sound you made sent us sitting up, scrambling to make sure you were okay and is not hungry!

So also after few days you would trouble me for feeding for entire night...but time flies away fast and now you are sweet perfect baby with adequate hunger!

Now you’re a toddler. You’re already growing so fast, and I’m so proud of who you are. I can’t wait to see who you become. When you were first born, your grandma, said she also knew you were here for a reason, and you have a special purpose. I know that to be true. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for you...

My prayer for you, my hope for your future, is that you become a man of God, stable, caring, independent and smart, gentle and strong like your dad, A leader.

When I go to check on you at night before I lay down to sleep besides you, I put my hand on your heart and I pray that you will know god and his place in our life. I pray that you will hear Him clearly when He speaks to you. I pray that you will not doubt Him, that you will be bold and carry His name to everyone you know. I pray for your purpose, for your life story. I know you’re here for something big and important, and I thank God for letting me be here to witness your life.

I will always love you and I will always be in your corner. I don’t make many promises to people but I will make this promise to you. I will ALWAYS listen to you and I will ALWAYS be someone you can count on. I will do whatever I can to make your life better for as long as there is air in my lungs and my heart still beats. ALWAYS,
ALWAYS, ALWAYS.

Happy second birthday, my precious, sweet little man.

Love,
Your mom

Here is the video....a wonderful gift from me and ur papa to you dear on this auspicious occassion of ur B'day!

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